Dont be angry with me

I know that I haven't written anything in a while but the matter of the fact is... Nothing Kinky is Happening!!! Nothing at all, no dates to talk about no sexy times with friends with benefits or anything... Ugh. That and even my title tells you that I will be inconsistent.

On my aff profile I have said that I am not looking for anyone over the age of 30. I'm not ok with dating someone, or even having sex with someone that is more then 10 years older then I am. I don't want a daddy in bed, though having someone to spoil me and buy me pretty things would be nice. But I still don't think I would be ok with it.

I'd met an older man on aff one day named charlie, a very experienced dom. We were very good friends online, he got me interested in quite a few things and caught me at a weak moment and asked to meet me for coffee. We met at Tim Horton's for a coffee, and I was terrified the whole time that everyone knew that I was on a date with him. He was a very interested person but he was as old as my dad. So although it was fun to talk to an old friend, I knew that I could never sleep with him or let him dominate me.

We took his dog for a walk in a local park, at one point someones dog had gotten off its leash and came at me. Now I am not terrified of dogs at all, I know how to protect myself if something was to happen so I was prepared for it. Well Charlie pushed me out of the way and stood in front of me so that the dog didn't even get near me. It was sweet but didn't strike me as anything but an older man protecting the younger girl. When we returned to his car he kissed me and I kinda giggled after it happened. There was nothing when he kissed me, in fact I became very aware of the people around us and what they thought of this 50yr old man kissing what appeared to be a 14 year old girl (I look very very young)

Later we had a drink and talked some more, he was a good friend till he moved away but we kept our interaction to online.

People have sent me messages online saying, I will never find a dominant man in his early 20's. Saying that at that point they haven't figured out or developed their kinky desires. But I will keep hoping that I will find one, I don't even mind if its someone with an open mind with no experienced. But until then I will have to wait.