The Inconsistent Doll

I am very submissive in general, I am very sure people will disagree with me but thats alright. I do not like to make the first move, because I don't want to be a bother. If he wants a kiss for the first time then he can kiss me. If he wants something most times I am fine with someone taking it from me.

Like in my last post when my "date" took my hand and said come here. Many thoughts ran through my head like:
If I do go quickly does that make me a slut?
If I dont fight him a lil will he be bored with me?
Should I really be making out with him?

All these thoughts seem to paralize me, I try to be perfect for him. It is better to have someone say come sit on my lap now! rather then ask me.

I dont like to ask people out for the reason that if they have time and want to go out with me then they will ask. Of course I will express that yes I would like to go out with you at sometime.

And in sex for the first time I do not know what a man likes to be done to him. After finding myself nervous and confused I let a recent man that I am friends with take control. By him telling me "suck my cock" I knew that it would please him if I did. And in knowing that it would please him it made me happy.

So if you wanna kiss me then kiss me.